One For some years now, the gentlemen of the book trade have pressed me
in the most urgent fashion to commit my memoirs to paper; for, these men
have argued, there are many who would gladly pay a few shillings to learn
of the true and surprising adventures of my life. While it has been my
practice to dismiss this idea with a casual wave of the hand, I cannot
claim to have never seriously thought on it, for I have often been the
first to congratulate myself on having seen and experienced so much, and
many times have I gladly shared my stories with good company around a
cleared dinner table. Nevertheless, there is a difference between tales
told over a late-night bottle of claret and a book that any man anywhere
can pick up and examine. Certainly I have taken pleasure from the idea
of recounting my history, but I have also recognized that to publish would
be a ticklish endeavor?the names and specifics of my adventures would
touch nearly on so many people still living that any such book would be
actionable to say the least. Yet the idea has intrigued?even plagued?me,
no doubt due to the vanity that breeds within all men's breasts, and perhaps
within mine more than most. I have therefore decided to write this book
as I see fit. If the gentlemen of Grub Street wish to dash out names of
obscure connections, then they may do so. For my part, I shall retain
the manuscript so that there can be some true record of these events,
if not for this age, then for posterity.
I have been at some pains
to decide how to begin, for I have seen many things of interest to the
general public. Shall I begin like the novelists, with my birth, or like
the poets, in the midst of the action? Perhaps neither. I think I shall
begin my tale with the day?now more than thirty-five years ago?when I
met William Balfour, for it is the matter regarding his father's death
that brought me some small measure of success and recognition with the
public. Until now, however, few men have known the whole truth behind
that affair.
Mr. Balfour first called on
me late one morning in October of 1719, a year of much turmoil upon this
island?the nation lived in constant fear of the French and their support
for the heir to the deposed King James, whose Jacobitical followers threatened
continually to retake the British monarchy. Our German King was but four
years upon the throne, and the power struggles within his ministry created
a feeling of chaos throughout the capital. All the newspapers decried
the burden of the nation's debt, which they said could never be paid,
but that debt showed no sign of decreasing. This era was one of exuberance
as well as turmoil, doom, and possibility. It was a fine time for a man
whose livelihood depended upon crime and confusion.
Matters of national politics
held little interest for me, however, and the only debt I cared for was
my own. And the day I begin my tale I had even more pressing cares than
my precarious finances. I had been long awake, but only recently out of
bed and dressed, when my landlady, Mrs. Garrison, informed me that there
was a Christian gentleman below who wished to see me. My good landlady
always felt the need to specify that it was a Christian gentleman come
to visit, though in the months I had resided with her, no Jew but myself
had ever entered her premises.
That morning I found myself
disordered and in no condition to receive visitors, let alone strangers,
so I asked Mrs. Garrison to send him away, but in her intrepid manner?for
Mrs. Garrison was a stalwart creature?she returned, informing me that
the gentleman's business was urgent. "He says it relates to a murder,"
she told me in the same dull tone she used to announce increases in my
rent. Her pallid and beveined face hardened to show her displeasure. "That's
what he said?murder?plain as anything. I cannot say it pleases me, Mr.
Weaver, to have men come to my house talking of murder."
I could not fully comprehend
why, if the word was so distasteful to her ears, she should pronounce
it quite so loudly within the halls, but I saw my task was to comfort
her. "I quite understand, madam. The gentleman surely said 'mercer' and
not 'murder,' " I lied, "for I am engaged in a concern of textiles at
this moment. Please send him up."
The word murder had caught
my attention as well as Mrs. Garrison's. Having been involved in a murder
of sorts not twelve hours earlier, I thought this matter might concern
me indeed. This Balfour would certainly be a scavenger of some kind?the
sort of desperate renegado with which London seethed, a creature who combed
the dank and filthy streets near the river, hunting for anything he might
pawn, including information. No doubt he had heard something of the unfortunate
adventure with which I had met and had come to ask me to pay for his silence.
I knew well how to dispose of a man of this stripe. Not with money, certainly,
for to give a rascal any silver at all was to encourage him to return
for more. No, I had found that in these cases violence usually did my
business. I would think of something bloodless?something that would not
attract Mrs. Garrison's attention when I escorted the blackguard out.
A woman with no taste for the talk of murder under her roof should hardly
countenance an act of mutilation paraded down her staircase.
I took a moment to order my
receiving room, as I called it. I took two rooms of Mrs. Garrison, one
private, the other in which I conducted my business. Like many businessmen?for
so I fancied myself, even then?I had been used to order my affairs in
a local coffeehouse, but the delicate nature of my work had made such
public venues unacceptable to the men I served. Instead, I had set up
a room with several comfortable chairs, a table around which to sit, and
a handsome set of shelves that I used to store wine and cheese rather
than the books for which they were designed. Mrs. Garrison had done the
decorating, and while she had given the room an inappropriately cheery
tone with its pinkish-white paint and light blue curtains, I found that
a few swords and martial prints about the walls helped to add a sufficiently
manly corrective.
I took pride in these rooms
being so very proper, for the genteel tone put the gentlemen who came
to seek my services at ease. My trade frequently involved the unsavory,
and gentlemen, I had learned, preferred the illusion that they dealt in
simple business?nothing more.
I should like to add, though
I risk accusations of vanity, I took pride in my own appearance as well.
I had escaped my years as a pugilist with few of the badges that gave
fellow-veterans of the ring the appearance of ruffians?missing eyes, mashed
noses, or suchlike disfigurements?and had no more to show for my beatings
than some small scars about my face and a nose that bore only the mild
bumps and jagged edges that come with several breakings. Indeed, I fancied
myself a well-enough-looking man, and I made a point of always dressing
neatly, if modestly. I wore upon my body only clean shirts, and none of
my coats and waistcoats were more than a year old. Nevertheless, I was
none of your sprightly popinjays who wore the latest bright colors and
frills; a man of my trade always prefers simple fashions that draw to
himself no particular attention.
I seated myself at my large
oaken writing desk, which faced the door. I used this desk when I ordered
my affairs, but I had discovered that it served to make clear my authority.
I thus picked up a pen and contorted the muscles in my face to resemble
something like a man both busy and irritated.
When Mrs. Garrison showed
this visitor in, however, I was at pains to conceal my surprise. William
Balfour was no prig?as we called thieves in those days?but a gentleman
of fine dress and appearance. He was perhaps five years younger than myself:
I gauged him at two- or three-and-twenty. He was a tall, gaunt, stooped
man with something of a sunken look on a wide, handsome face that was
only slightly marred by the scars of smallpox. He wore a wig of the first
quality, but it showed its age and wear in its stains and a dingy sallow
color poorly hidden by powder. Similarly, his clothes bore the signs of
fine tailoring, but they looked a bit over-used, covered with the dust
of road and panic and cheap lodgings. His waistcoat in particular, once
laced with fine silver stuff, was now tattered and threadbare. There was,
too, something in his eyes. I could not tell if it was suspicion or fatigue
or defeat, and he observed me with a skepticism to which I was all too
accustomed. Most men who walk through that door, you understand, had a
look prepared for me?scorn, doubt, superiority. A few even had admiration.
Men of this last category had seen me in my prime as a pugilist, and their
love of sport overcame their embarrassment at seeking the aid of a Jew
who meddled in other men's unpleasantries. This Balfour looked at me as
neither Jew nor pugilist, but as something else?something of no consequence
whatsoever, almost as though I were the servant who should take him to
the man he sought.
"Sir," I said, standing up
as Mrs. Garrison closed the door behind her. I gave Balfour a short bow,
which he returned with a wooden resignation. After offering him a seat
before my desk, I returned to my chair and informed him I awaited his
commands.
He hesitated before stating
his business, taking a moment to study my features?I should say gawk at
my features, for he regarded me as more spectacle than man. His eye roamed
with clear disapproval at my face and clothing (though both were cleaner
and neater than his own), and squinted at my hair; for, unlike a proper
gentleman, I wore no peruke, and instead pulled my locks back in the style
of a tie-periwig.
"You, I presume, are Benjamin
Weaver," he began at last in a voice that cracked with uncertainty. He
hardly noticed my nod of acknowledgment. "I come on a serious matter.
I am not pleased to be forced to seek your peculiar skills, but I require
the assistance that only a man such as yourself can provide." He shifted
uneasily in his chair, and I wondered if Mr. Balfour was not what he claimed?if
he were perhaps a man of a much lower order than he affected, masquerading
as a gentleman. There was, after all, the murder he had spoken of to Mrs.
Garrison, but I now could not but wonder if the murder he mentioned was
the one that so plagued my own thoughts.
"I hope I am able to be of
some assistance to you," I said, with practiced civility. I laid down
my pen and cocked my head slightly to show him that I put my full attention
at his disposal.
His hands shook distractingly
while he studied his fingernails with unconvincing indifference. "Yes,
it is an unpleasant business, so I am sure you are quite equal to the
task."
I offered him a brief bow
from my chair and told him he was too kind or some other like platitude,
but he hardly noticed what I said. Despite his attempts to perform a sort
of fashionable lassitude, he appeared for all the world like a man on
the brink of choking, as though his collar tightened about his throat.
He bit his lip. He looked about the room, eyes darting here and there.
"Sir," I said, "you will forgive
me if I note that you appear a little discomposed. Can I offer you a glass
of port?"
My words all but slapped him
in the face, and he collected himself once again to the posture of an
insouciant buck. "I must imagine that there are less presumptuous ways
for you to inquire into a gentleman's distresses. Nevertheless, I shall
take a drink of whatever quality you have upon you."
It was not out of deference
that I allowed Balfour to insult me freely. Once I had established myself
in my trade, it took no great amount of time to learn that men of birth
or standing had a profound need to demonstrate their superiority?not to
the man they hired to meddle in their private business, but to the business
itself. I could not take Balfour's freedoms personally, for they were
not directed at me. I also knew that once I had effectively served such
a man, the memory of his discourteous behavior often inspired him to pay
promptly and to recommend my skills to his acquaintances. I therefore
tossed off Mr. Balfour's insults as a bear tosses off the dogs sent to
bait it in Hockley-in-the-Hole. I poured his wine and returned to my desk.
He took a sip. "I am not discomposed,"
he assured me. If the quality of my drink pleasantly surprised my guest,
as I expected it should, he thought this fact not worth mentioning. "I
am certainly tired from a poor night's rest, and indeed"?he paused to
look at me pointedly?"I am in mourning for my father, who died not two
months ago."
I offered my apologies and
then startled myself by telling him that I too had recently lost a father.
Balfour astonished me in return
by telling me that he knew of my father's death. "Your father, sir, and
my own were acquaintances. They did business together, you know, at times
when my father had the need to call on a man of your father's . . . sort."
I would like to believe that
I showed no surprise, but I doubt it was so. My given name is not Weaver,
but Lienzo. Few men were familiar with my true name, so I could not have
anticipated that this man would know the identity of my father. I could
not guess what else Balfour knew of me, but I asked no questions. I only
nodded slowly.
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